Until today, I didn’t know
That so many emotions could be felt once,
There’s the sourness of lemon
From yesterday’s loss
Tears that rolled down and dried before hitting the ground,
Sadness that keeps coming back like waves on the shore
There’s the sweetness of sugar
From Today’s hopeful film
It said that Worse is never an option for life .
I don’t have much choice in what to tell myself,
It’s either this or sitting up all night.
So I take the former and sleep on pills tonight.
There’s the thirst for water
From missing the ones who have gone
Unable to quench this thirst with booze or beer or martini
Just like drinks, I have tried other people too,
The last one would have worked if
I hadn’t realised what water tasted like
At the last moment.
There’s the desperation for tequila too
From not being able to set things right,
Being a shoulder for someone crying
Never felt good, if your shirt soaked the tears of a loved one.
I am forced to gulp in this lemonade martini today,
Made up of lemon and sugar and water and tequila
But, what if I want to drink hot chocolate ?
Which hugs me and warms me up on your behalf
And tells me, I am safe.
Even though safe is not an emotion.
So I beg you to tell me
What will I be, if not my emotions?